Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow
Posted in My Weight-Loss Journey by RachelI’ve been pouring over hairstyles all day trying to find the perfect one for tomorrow.
Yes, I am finally getting my hair cut.
The last time I got my hair ‘professionally cut’ when was I was in 11th grade. Since then, I’ve either cut it myself while in the shower (don’t ask) or asked The Girl to cut it for me. It didn’t really matter who cut it or how it was cut. As long as I kept it at a manageable length that could be slinged back day in and day out, I was happy.
Hair cuts were phased out once I started to pack on the pounds for two reasons:
1. I didn’t give a flying shit about my appearance
2. I didn’t want to give people multiple reasons to laugh at me
It’s one thing to navigate life as the ‘token fat girl’, but it’s quite another to be the ‘token fat girl with a retarded haircut’. I just could not chance it. And I didn’t! For nine years.
I’ve been meaning to go in for the kill ever since I hit the 50-lb mark, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Even though losing 50 lbs is nothing to gawk at, it wasn’t ‘enough’ to quell the ‘fat girl’ fears deep inside. Couple that little slice of reality with the plethora of ‘transformations’ I’ve experienced within the last nine months and you’ve got yourself one hyper-sensitive former pizza addict with zero safety nets.
Now that I am hovering the 80-lb mark, I feel a lot more comfortable in my skin and change is something I’m becoming accustomed to. Besides, if the unthinkable happens and I walk out of that salon with a jacked up do, I won’t default to the Rachel Special that has plagued me for so long:
I won’t automatically assume people are laughing at me because of my weight.
An amazing side-effect of dramatic weight-loss: improved perspective.
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Monica says:
Go get one of those hairstyle magazines. They are $5 but I could sit and gawk for hours at those and they have so many different styles and colors. I cannot wait to get my hair done or a complete friggin makeover!
I cant believe you are at the 80 pound mark. That seems so overwhelming to me. Did you always know how to cook or was that something that you had to teach yourself? Either way, sofa king congrats, you have worked so hard, its literally jaw dropping to me.
I cannot wait to see your hair! Also, I was the same way, I thought everyone at the salon would laugh at me until I realized that their job is to make people look good! Just go in with a smile and tell them your story, I bet they will be so impressed!
Natasha says:
I can’t wait to see what your new hair looks like! Please, please, please post pictures.
Christy, the Fat Girl says:
Hey! I just found your website through Monica’s blogroll. I had saw it a few times before, the link, and at the time, my computer had a virus and when I clicked it, it took me to some search page about body for life or something like that. Anyway! I’m glad I found you!
I love your blog, and congrats on your progress. I’ve lost 87 lbs so far myself, but I’m a third of the way to my goal. I’m 337.6. I know what you mean about the transformations. It’s already happening to me. I had lost a bunch of weight before, but never fixed my head and put it back on. Funny how when we lose weight we find ourselves.
I can’t wait to see your haircut! My hair was always something I did stuff with because people always said it was a positive trait of mine. I got the point I stopped fixing it because I thought, heck, I’m over 400 lbs. People aren’t going to think a thing about my hair. It’s just that toxic outlook that slowly getting sloughed away. I’m glad you’re realizing that you’re worth a snazzy new haircut. I can’t wait to see it.
And just a warning, yeah, I write novellas in comment forms.
Hope you don’t mind.
Rachel says:
So glad you found me because your blog looks like its full to the brim of much awesomeness. I am definitely going to add your site to my blog roll. Congrats on your loss as well! 87 is a lot — no matter how much you may have left to lose. Make sure you relish in ALL of your accomplishments (however big or small they may seem).
You are not kidding about that ‘toxic outlook’. Toxic may be putting it too lightly. What about NUCLEAR? The A-BOMB of obesity! Keep pushin’ girl.